Trying to Cope

Savannah's appt with the orthopedic specialist is now Monday at 3:30 at Ark. Children's Hospital.

I now have to ask off for Monday, possibly Tuesday too if they put her in a brace ( no way in the world I'm going to work the next day when they first put her in the brace!). I lost a day without pay today which we just can NOT afford right now, and I have to ask off I'm sure a lot more days for all this. My job/boss is NOT understanding, and they will eventually come down hard on me just like they did for missing so many days last year when I was put on BEDREST and MATERNITY LEAVE. If they can't give any on that, then they won't give on anything! I am supposed to turn in my lesson plans tommorow ( no other teacher has to do this) because I am on a improvement plan that I don't deserve to be on... there's no way I can get those plans done by tommorow after this.. I've asked my principal in the past to let me turn them in one Friday due to my kid being sick, and she flat said NO. NOT a BIT of UNDERSTANDING!! There's no way she'll allow me to turn these in Friday! Ya know what? I am going to turn them in Friday anyway, and the heck with her and that stupid school. If they jump me for turning them in Friday instead of tommorow considering my circumstances, don't ya think I could justify calling my AEA rep?

I just can't take it anymore. I am drowning in stress, and it is absolutely going to kill me. I hate my job, and they hate me. Why the heck won't they just release me with pay like they did the other teacher? I've been put through this crap for 3 years now.. 3 YEARS!! I could handle things a lot better if I didn't have to deal with this stupid job. Savannah is double covered, and if I lose my job, we lose her double coverage which has been a Godsend with all her problems. I don't know what to do, but I can't deal with all this anymore!

So, now it's another 4 more days of agonizing wait for this appointment!! Somebody please just shoot me and put me out of my misery because I have just about reached my breaking point, and I am having an extremely hard time coping!